At this moment. I don’t know what is happening to me. I don’t know if I’m going crazy or something. I don’t want to open my books and notes. I don’t want to watch the tele. I just simply don’t want to do anything. I left the pc open. So I just typed this to my ipod.

Right now if the world exploded into a million pieces I wouldn’t care. It’s like okay for me if I die right now. Im not an emo, and definitely not suicidal. but I’m not one of them. I separate myself from any “hurt yourself things” that’s just stupid.

Im thinking ..come what may.. anything..im not scared..if something good will come well that’s good if it bad .. I don’t care.. its fine with me.. I wouldn’t care..

Is it the effect of alcohol? Second hand smoke? Somehow toxics got int my rain and destroyed some neurons which affected my way of focus and thinking right now. Well this is still a mystery. But right now im feeling a little better. I don’t know why .. maybe my body thinks that these reactions are just freakin stupid. So I have to get over it. Get over it! And somehow brought my thinking back to normal.

What a complete waste of time. Are you still reading this? Its all nonsense right? Im very mixed up..